Unbiased Memories

If only I could
bring back the feeling of
reading my favourite book
for the first time

If only I could
bring back the joy of
laughing with you
for the first time

If only I could
bring back the sound of
her saccharine voice when I heard it
for the first time

If I could
It would all sum up to nothing
but great agony
Because
that feeling
that joy
that chime
is what parts us now
in ways that can never
be traced back